God’s Timing

This week I found myself standing in front of a crowd of about twenty people sharing my experience within the homeschool and private school world. When I tell you, I was soooo nervous - it wasn’t an exaggeration! I haven’t done any public speaking since last year and it felt super odd. In the back of my head there were these questions of “do I appear too young”, “what if they can’t understand me well”, “this is completely in Spanish, am I even conveying my words properly?” On and on, these questions kept distracting me, but as I got into the rhythm of my presentation and slowly became confident about what I was sharing, every thing became so much easier. I felt in my element - something that had been severely lacking in the past six months.

The words “I have made you for a time such as this” have been bouncing in my head lately. There’s a certainty that this, in this moment in time, is where I’m supposed to be. I don’t know why exactly. I don’t know if I have to know why. Yet, I would call this God’s Timing.

I started working with someone who is building a homeschool co-op for Hispanic families and he put me at the helm of the whole project. For the past three months, I’ve been working on this part-time. Planning, scheduling, presenting, and working with families is the essence of my work. It’s not where I envisioned myself. I never thought this is where I would be two years after college. But here I am. Every time I think about questioning this, those same words keep coming back “I have made you for a time such as this”.

I feel at peace with this, even though it hasn’t gone according to plan. In my mind, I would be working full-time and moving out of my parent’s place immediately. It seems God has other plans and, in hindsight, it may be working out better than my own plans.

Do I understand it? No, not at all. Which is the irony of the entire situation.

So, if you’re in a similar boat, I hope you know that there is someone out there going through a similar experience.

Praying for you <3